Dear body with insecurities

I think this is way over due and I owe you an apology.

I’ve never taken the time to truly reflect on how AMAZING you are. Instead, I’ve abused you beyond words. I’ve contaminated your very existence with toxins. I’ve mutilated the very definition of your existence. Years upon years of mistreatment and neglect. Ignoring signs you blared.

My dear body, diet after diet. Restricting food one day, over feeding you the next. Extremely limited physical activity. Denying you the basic rights of a physical entity. And if that wasn’t enough, there was the hate-talk. The constant negative reminders about how disappointed I was. Blaming you for things you had no control over. Directing all responsibility on you, as if you were at fault for my disappointment. Never realizing you were only trying to survive with what you were giving.

As I sit here reflecting on how truly amazing you are, I cannot help but find my jaw hanging down. Despite everything, you believed in me and patiently waited. Although the abuse showed, you never stopped working.

Dear body, I’m learning. I’m realizing now, how amazing you are. I’m recognizing that if given a chance, you can overcome amazing accomplishments. I’m discovering, although slowly, how to trust you. How to listen for your signals. And how to be just as patient with you as you were and continue to be with you. I’m discovering how far you can take me and how, when we work together, how beautiful synchronized we can be.

I would be a fool if I said I would never again abuse you - but, I stand here today to say that I appreciate you. I cannot promise you perfection but, my pledge to you is to recognize and be forever grateful for how far you’ve allowed me to come.

Dear body, I appreciate you. I am proud you.

With tons of love,

simplywithangie